Monday, November 10, 2008

Oh Baby

Does it sound funny to say that I am little nervous and a bit scared to be having a little girl. I realized over the last few days that I have some genuine fears about raising a girl. I love my boys and have enjoyed sharing the wonderful mommy-son bond with them. However I knew the real work was left up to John, you know the teaching them to be good men and priesthood holders, how to run fast and never to give up, how to be tough and yet sensitive. My boys have an amazing example for their gender, John. He is a wonderful Dad and does the greatest job. I felt secure in my role as loving protector and dearest mommy, I was never concerned that they would not know how to be the best little men around because John would help them with all of the boy stuff.
Now as I sit here feeling little baby girl Spencer kick and wiggle inside me, I wonder if I can keep up my side of the bargain. If I can teach her to be the best women and daughter of God, she can be. Will she look to me as an example or wish her mother was just slightly less flawed? I hope that I can teach her to be strong and yet gentle, to be true to her self and to use the spirit to dictate her life. Will she take all the good qualities from me that I can give her? I am grateful to have this new challenge and to learn and grow with this sweet gift from God.

12 comments:

Heather said...

What? That's what we are supposed to be doing? You'll do great, and if not then our girls can go to therapy together.

CAN'T wait to buy you pink!

Amy said...

You will be a great mother to your little girl. Just the fact that you are worried about it shows how much you really care. She will love you, and she will look back and think that her mother couldn't have been any better.

Rob and Juliann said...

Sara, your girl will turn out great. You are a wonderful example. Give yourself more credit. You will LOVE a girl just as much...plus you get to buy a dollhouse someday.

lindsay>boo said...

You are going to be an amazing mother to your little girl. Quite frankly, she is going to score because she has you!

Jan said...

Girls make me swirl. You will be tickled "pink". So exciting.

Jamie said...

I can understand your feelings. I often feel the same way when I think about Taylor growing up. I know she is watching me and imitating me, and I just hope I am doing everything right. It is a little scarey, but you will do wonderfully!

CatherineWO said...

All she will have to do is watch you, Sara, just like the rest of us do. Of course, there will be days when she will not like you, but what's not to love about you?

Jennica said...

Okay who is Heather, I loved her comment! -Lady, you just keep doing what you're doing. You take such good care of your family and put so much of yourself in all you do. Plus you're a good person, so stop all this worrying and just enjoy that you, Sara, are having a baby girl! And that is going to be so much fun!

Shaela said...

everything you said is so true, and I feel the same way about it all! But I know that if we put our trust in the Lord, He'll help us fill in the gaps.

PRP said...

You'll do wonderfully! That's what makes the whole motherhood journey so fun-having different children and different personalities to test your skills on. You are a kind and gracious woman and your daughter will be too!

Sue said...

Sara you are a great mom and will do fantastic with a little girl. Have no worries

Wendy Christensen {Moments Like This} said...

OH this is such wonderful news!! YOU will love having a daughter and you'll be perfect for each other :) ... Congrats to you!